entering college 5/25/08

entering sakethall was all mixed emotions to where i fell like throwing up so bad i want to go back home. first days was boring here and time for me was all i don't know it is like i want to go home but at the same time don't. i just want to go back home because i am bored i know i got some people i know that are here but i just want to go back. my heart beating so much that can't stop beating but i am praying i will be okay. i just can't wait to go home this week end but i don't want to go back here i don't know why i don't want to come back. college wow going to be starting on the 2nd of next month, and well i kind of don't want to go college yet but i have been told to go. so my first day was the worse day of my life, and it felt like i can't put in words but it was the worse day of my life now. i can't believe our group is going what they call them when kayaking something like that laugh out loud i don't even know if i am spelling this today. i am guessing i am to much wanting to go home that is all, shoot man i do want to go back home. freaking out here and what else bored to the bone. it is like every minute something is missing in my life and i have to get use to it and quick. i am here in the room all thinking "why am i here and what am i doing here." "oh yea i got to get my edecation..." man i feel like crying but i don't want to cause idk just don't want to. well i am going to head out tomorrow we are going to have fun. well here i go darn I WANT TO GO HOME. well giving college a chance and yea i am going bye and good night.