Sitting Here Waiting

Not paying attention to the time

Looking out the window

Watching everything 

Birds flying here and there

Snow falling from the clouds to the ground

Looking into the sky

Daydreaming about the future

Sitting here waiting

For the right time to 

Get my degree and start working

Sitting here working

Listening to my teacher

Doing my homework

Sitting here waiting for the day

Missing You

thinking more about college

missing home of Oscarville

my family there

doing things we always do

getting ready for winter

and getting ready for summer

seeing my family there

then when i am here

in bethel having college

there are no where to be seen

but when i close my eyes every night 

i see them there 

feeling so bad for what i did wrong 

to make them so mad, sad, and gods know what

but i love them so much

that i will do anything to make them happy

like

going to college

not going to stay behind

finish my homework

before i have my free time

calling them to let them know i am doing okay

these i would make them happy

missing Oscarville

missing my family

missing them so bad

can't wait until i am there

like not in my dreams

but there watching them

watching movies

cleaning the house

playing outside in the snow

home once again

First Time Ever Felt Like This

my mind all relaxed

for the first time

my box of blocks

has been taken from me

feeling free from thinking

free for the first time.....ever

enjoying this moment as i can

not feeling like CRAP

freedom for the first time

an adult has come to life

a new adult life ~BuNnA~

has come out to college

first time ever felt like this 

ffrreeee!